How can I decide what’s right?
When you’re clouding up my mind
I can’t win you’re losing fight
All the time

now could ever own what’s mine?
When you’re always taking sides
But you won’t take away my pride
No, not this time
Not this time

How did we get here?
When I used to know you so well
but How did we get here?
Well, I think I know how

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it’s hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood
But you think that I can’t see
What kind of man that you are
If you’re a man at all
Well, I will figure this one out
On my own
(I’m screaming, “I love you so”)
On my own
(My thoughts you can’t decode)

How did we get here?
When I used to know you so well, yeah
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know how

Do you see what we’ve done?
We’ve gone and made such fools
Of ourselves
Do you see what we’ve done?
We’ve gone and made such fools
Of ourselves

How did we get here?
When I used to know you so well, yeah, yeah
Well, How did we get here?
When i used to know you so well.
I think I know
I think I know

There is something I see in you
It might kill me
I want it to be true

Gosh! That was Decode by Paramore. Ever since I knew this song is the credit song for Twilight Movie, I played this song all the time even in the plane..
"Do you see what we've done? We've gone and made such fools .."
that's so teenagers just like me. I know I made fools and I guessed if it's normal.
but, after all these times I have to change into a better person.
Being mature doesn't mean being old .. but becoming a better person and wiser than ever ..

Do you ever loved?
If you do, then it must be happy - funny - exciting days.
You want to see his / her face everyday.

Do you ever felt being trait?
If you do, then it must be hurt - painful days.

Well, those are my feelings right now to a person. A very close person to my heart.
The locker.
My heart keeper.
My half heart.

I don't know what I have done to him. But he disappeared in all of sudden.
Avoiding my texts, rejecting my calls.
Honestly I'm very confuse with him. I was worried so much.
But later I found out if he already has a new fling.
What would you do if you were me?

All of my emotions are coming out from his reactions.
All of my happy days are coming from him.
All of my sadness are coming from him.
He's my world. He's the numero uno.
What should I do?

I tried so hard to forget him.
I tried so hard to hate him.
But it just another time-consumed.

God! Please, set me out from this circle of pain..

Who would've guessed? Gue yang agak anti Jonas Brothers *sorry for JB fans* mendadak menyanyikan lagu Lovebug everyday?
Cuma ada beberapa perubahan karena kalo gue nyanyiin utuh, bisa-bisa gue dipikir lesbi! haha ..
So, here's the result:


Looked at you for the first time yesterday
Finally found the missing part of me
Felt so close but you were far away
Left me without anything to say

Now I’m speechless
Over the edge
I’m just breathless
I never thought that I’d catch this
Lovebug again

Hopeless
Head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I’d get hit
By this lovebug again

I can’t get your smile out of my mind
(I can’t get you out of my mind)
I think about your eyes all the time
You’re handsome but you don’t even try
(You don’t even, don’t even try)
Intelligent is just so hard to find

Now I’m speechless
Over the edge
I’m just breathless
I never thought that I’d catch this
Lovebug again

Hopeless
Head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I’d get hit
By this lovebug again

Smiled him for the first time yesterday
Everything I wished that it would be
Suddenly I forgot how to speak
Hopeless, breathless, baby, can't you see

Now I’m…
Yeah!

Now I’m speechless
Over the edge
I’m just breathless
I never thought that I’d catch this
Lovebug again

Now I'm hopeless
Head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I’d get hit
By this lovebug again
Ohh... lovebug again

The symptoms are alike but there are parts not myself.
Hopeless ? I don't feel hopeless because I have faith in myself if he will be told by others or maybe by the signals of mine .. hehe
At least, he is the most intelligent guy I've ever known ..








.. and Mama, "I want that fella o'mine!"
hoho ..

temukan apa arti dibalik cerita
hati ini terasa berbunga-bunga
membuat seakan aku melayang
terbuai asmara

adakah satu arti dibalik tatapan
tersipu melupakan sebuah senyuman
membuat suasana menjadi nyata
begitu indahnya

dia ..
seperti apa yang selalu kunantikan
aku inginkan
dia ..
melihatku apa adanya
seakan ku sempurna

tanpa buang kata
kau curi hatiku
dia tunjukkan dengan tulus cintanya
terasa berbeda saat bersamanya
aku jatuh cinta

dia ..
seperti apa yang selalu kunantikan
aku inginkan
dia ..
melihatku apa adanya
seakan ku sempurna

dia bukakan pintu hatiku yang lama tak bisa percayakan cinta hingga dia disini
memberikan cintaku harapan

dia ..
seperti apa yang selalu kunantikan
aku inginkan
dia ..
melihatku apa adanya
seakanku sempurna

Last week felt so great ..!
Awalnya sih gue ngerasa kalau menyukainya merupakan suatu hal yang impossible. But impossible is nothing!
Ga ada orang yang bisa ngelarang gue untuk menyukainya. Dan hal ini tidak hanya berlaku bagi gue, tapi untuk semua orang. Itulah hal yang selalu gue omongin ke teman-teman gue yang sedang kasmaran (cielah bahasanya .. hahaha). "Lo ga salah suka sama dia. Lo juga ga pernah salah karena sudah sayang sama dia. Namanya juga perasaan, ga bisa direncanakan. Yang salah adalah kenapa lo mempertanyakan perasaan itu."

Seperti lagu Dia-Maliq and d'Essentials, orang itu benar-benar seperti yang gue cari selama ini. Cuma yang aneh, ini pertama kalinya gue suka sama orang yang benar-benar asing dalam hidup gue. Selama ini, lagu Lucky-Jason Mraz lebih menggambarkan perasaan gue (karena biasanya gue suka dengan orang yang gue kenal baik.) cuma kembali lagi ke quotation awal yang berwarna biru biotech itu, namanya juga perasaan.
Gue selalu merasa damai setiap kali melihatnya dan apakah itu salah?
Gue merasa beban dan masalah yang gue rasakan tiap habis kelas bisa hilang atau berkurang setiap kali gue melihatnya. Apakah salah kalau gue jadi ingin bertemu dengannya terus?
Namun, itulah perasaan yang kata Agnes "ga pernah pakai logika", karena kalau perasaan dicampur dengan logika, hal itu bukan "perasaan" lagi.