Monday 30 November 2009

loving you

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Ring, ring it's you again heart pops 
I loved to hear you 
It's been all day I've been waiting for you 
Hello, you call my name 
So much stories you shared with me 
You said a lot to me about girls 
Oh, it's so nice 
And every beauty thing they did to you 
Don't stop and tell me more' 

Loving you it hurt sometimes 
I'm standing here you just don't bye 
I'm always there you just don't feel 
Or you just don't wanna feel 
Don't wanna be hurt that way 
It doesn't mean I'm givin' up 
I wanna give you more 
And more and more' 

Knock, knock you came around heart pops 
I loved to see you 
It's been two years since I'm love with you 
Bum! Bum! You break my heart 
You said, girl I'm in love with her 
But it's all right, I'm still alive yeah' ohh' 
And all the beauty things she did to you 
Don't stop and tell me more 


Loving you it hurt sometimes 
I'm standing here you just don't bye 
I'm always there you just don't feel 
Or you just don't wanna feel 
Don't wanna be hurt that way 
It doesn't mean I'm givin' up 
I wanna give you more 
And more and more' 

And when I see that smile upon your face 
Deep in your eyes you had it all 
And when I hear you super electrical voices' 


Loving you it hurt sometimes 
I'm standing here you just don't bye 
I'm always there you just don't feel 
Or you just don't wanna feel 
Don't wanna be hurt that way 
It doesn't mean I'm givin' up 
I wanna give you more 
And more and more' 

loving you - d'cinnamons
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maybe its not 2 years yet, but ,yeah, it does hurt here. specially when i heard the news.
is it true?
am i?
did i?
was i?

you never told me what you really feel. you never showed me any signs. you left me with uncertainties.
what should i do with those? jump into a final conclusion: i like you or i dont like you?

i dont wanna fall again. i dont wanna shrink to the bottom one more time.
thought you'd be different than any other guys i knew
but, once again, boys will always be boys
they are all the same
only give me pain. not in the ass, but in the heart.

you and i have one thing in common
once you get hurt, you'll hate that person
i dont want to hate you
but if i have to
i dont want to hate you
cause

you're my friend and will always be my friend...

Sunday 29 November 2009

love letter to a chemist

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woke up with a very bad feeling. bad sign. and now i am listening to john mayer and jamie cullum songs as breakfast. totally bad luck. so i decided to go online, searching for love letters. dunno why, i just did. so i "found" a love letter which so tickly. 

LOVE LETTER TO A CHEMIST
by Sierra Bellows

as a student of science, you tell me that love is chemical. i imagine bright yellow sugar crystals, like shards of rock candy, gushing through my blood stream. with their sparkling sharp edges, they flood my brain and make me drunk and unwieldy. thay fizz and froth as they react with the hidden deposits of disappointment that have built up between the edges, in the deeper crevices and unventilated parts of me. they dissolve in the warm wet of my wiring and their tiniest parts drift in and out of my cells, fitting into the odd shaped doors and windows of the cell wall.

how much do you love me? let me count the ways. ag + si + uuh + as. and i regret never learning the periodic table. i have to look it up. ag is silver. si is silicone, the second most plentiful element, it is found in sand. uub is ununbium, which has no known uses and is made by man. i am surprised that so many elements are man-made, manufactured. but i shouldnt be surprised about love. and the last part is arsenic. a poison that makes  my head spin and awakens the desire to wrap you in my arms and sleep forever.

in the lab, you wear a white coat and goggles to protect your eyes. you tic your hair back. there is a safety shower. with me, your hair is down and we touch each others naked skin, unprotected and permeable. there is a white powder caught between the folds of your fingerprints and as you trace your fingers over my skin, you leave a thin coating of elation. it travels under my skin; it follows the meridians, and finds my centre, my core. there are other white powders, other promises for rapture that bring this same quickening of the pulse, the flushing, and the tingling. these are illicit chemicals, illegal. but they have never worked on me, not like this. there is danger here too, there is addiction. when i think of you, the inside of my chest becomes awash in some caustic compound, there is heat and the sensation of burning. for weeks, i am agitated, high all night on the thought of you. your physical presence has blazed an afterimage on my body. the pattern of you- the electrical charge, dendrite to dendrite the unique chemistry in the synaptic gap - has changed the shape of me and i am delirious.

in the dark, you whisper secrets, you tell me how ununbium was so recently discovered. i marvel at something so rare and so new.
you entwine your hands with mine and explain compounds. when we stop talking, you make my body a beaker for your potion; you mix me and stir me, you heat me to boiling, you cool me to freezing, and you pour me out. you are the mad scientist - with the colourful liquids, the complicated machines with hundreds of glass tubes, and the dry ice smoke - with a crazy recipe for ecstasy. i am thankful for your knowledge, your ability to measure, and your experimentation.

but what have i taught you, my student of science? i tell you love is never having to say you're sorry. i tell you love is a many splendored thing. i tell you love is a four-letter word. but you have never liked movie allusion or literary references and you turn away. and i am forced to wonder if this thing, that is you and me, has a half-life. could it leave me too fragile, like the eggs of poisoned birds? eggs with shells that break when birds try to incubate them. when i ask you, you say you know little about biology. i ask you: what is the atomic weight you your feeling for me? i nag you. i buy books about biology and cinema. i stop listening to your talk of lattice energies and electron affinities. i ask you why a chemist so good at mixing cant make decent pancake batter. i am like a wayward electron, falling out of orbit around you. i suggest couples counseling. you suggest classes in biological chemistry.

in the end, you tell me you love me as much as uuu. i ask: how much is that? but you wont say. i tell you that this love talk of months ago doesnt cut it anymore, that love isnt ag + si + uub + as. but you just shake your head and keep quiet. i am forced to go to the reference library. i turn thin pages in fat books. i look and search. i read and wonder: how much is uuu? and then i find it:
isolation of an observable quantity of unununium has never been achieved, and may well never be.

your love for me is so minute that it cant be observed? and you wouldnt even tell it to my face, you let me find out alone among books you likely love more than you love me. i cry in the deep quiet of the library and taste the nacl of my tears.
so, my dear student of science, though your love is gone, mine still lingers like a heavy metal. a memory or  as harp blow will dislodge yellow sugar crystals of feeling from the dark recesses and undersides of me. and they will flow through their old passageways: the heart and the mind.


this is the original love letter


little attentions from mrs. siegmund to mr. siegmund (mr. siegmund was a psychologist)

isnt that romantic? never thought if chemistry would be this romantic. though i learned chemistry, i never used it to pronounce the romance side of me. maybe i should try one :p

Saturday 28 November 2009

the twenty phases

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found it on kaskus (one of the largest community site) -while i was relaxing from immunology assignment- and translated to english. yup, since my cousin have complained cause i posted almost all my posts in bahasa indonesia. oh and i also put some of my comments. if you knew me, you'd know which one is my comment :p

20 PHASES OF LOVE SONGS
When I fall in love, from the title we would know if this is the first phase of all. a phase where there's nothing in the world is as beautiful as our world.

The way you look tonight, when you pick her for the first time, at her house, and you amaze with everything about her.

Can you feel the love tonight, when you have her as your date on your very first date. love is in the air :)

Tonight I celebrate my love, is the night of the night. when the man said "would you be my girl?". and for the woman is when she heard her loved ones said "would you be my girl?" in a romantic place, probably in a middle of concert or somewhere.

I do, when she said "yes, i would"

Kiss from a rose, on our one month anniversary. your boyfriend gave you a red rose (or blue rose perhaps for me). or maybe your girlfriend gave you an unexpected surprise (yup, we -girls- love one month anniversary)

More than words, is when your girlfriend asked you "how much do you love me?" or vice versa. seriously, it's really working. although it's kinda bullshit. but if you said it with all of your feeling, it'll work.

This is I promise you, when we promised if we're going to be loyal to each other and won't loose our love hormone or something. (if you're not really sure, don't make any promises. it hurts when you can't keep your promises)

Have I told you lately?, when we started our little fights...

I don't want to talk about it, when we had our fights, arguing, we just don't want to talk about it anymore. don't want to sweat a small things.

Better that we break, is when you felt you have to ended this relationship but you can't stand to just walk away from him/her.

Power of love, it's really happening. love does conquer all.

Time to say goodbye, in the end, one of us should make a decision. a painful, hurtful, decision.

Always on my mind, even though we're over doesn't mean it really is over.

Out of reach, when you tried everything to have the relationship "on" again but he/she really doesn't wanna back. in this case, never ever asked him/her "do you still love me?" seriously, you don't want to know the answer.

Heaven knows, we only keep wishing the person that we love will always be happy. cause his happiness is our happiness.

Best I ever had, is the point when we felt he/she would never ever back to us.

Don't love you no more, this is the time when we have to move on. crying mellow time is over. why would you keep waiting for the man who doesn't love you anymore? he/she doesn't worth it!

Back at one, well when we found someone new, we are surely going back to the first phase, aren't we?

I want to grow old with you, "until death do us part..." this is the final phase when you finally landed your life with someone. to spend the rest of your life with :)

back to immunology assignment :'(

o_O

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oh my god!
OH MY GOD!


gue gendutan! yup, that is for sure. i become fatter and fatter as a pig (or cow for moslem)  who's gonna have the slaughter for the next year's qorban (lebay mode: on)


kayanya ini akibat gue makan kaya babi deh. at first, i decided to have this diet i had back in high school. but now? don't remind me, please. okay people, i know you're wondering why in all of sudden i want to diet again. it's not for christmas, it's for some guy(s) who have arrived in jakarta, safely. who is he? who are they? my elementary friend(s)! and i am so not going to meet them if my body still looking like a giant turkey who got lost from thanksgivings day. it was a very hard time for me to lost 20kg in a year and now? a giant turkey who eats like a freaking giant elephant. 


well, this week i've been eating like a freaking giant elephant. non stop. rice. i had this promise to myself, to live against rice, instead i'm best friend-ing with it. special for today, rice is my lost soul mate! yup, i ate sushi. the one and only SUSHI TEI was my lunch menu. why on earth i should be a sushi tei groupie? why God? WHY?! (lebay marlebay lg --")


okay, guess i need to stop eating carbs. all those instant noodles i have gonna have to go. start to buy milk. lots and lots of milk. oh and one more, should i leave the credit card? it's very tempting you know LOL.


bottom line is: i have to lose all those freaking weight to 50kg! FIGHTING ANASTASIA i know you can do it!


(sushi tei, starbucks, sour sally i am so sorry. you're gonna lost one of your loyal customer until february. zara and topshop wait for me!)

Friday 27 November 2009

all we ever do is say goodbye..

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Just when I had you off my head
Your voice comes thrashing wildly through my quiet bed
You say you wanna try again
But I've tried everything but giving in


Why you wanna break my heart again
Why am I gonna let you try


When all we ever do is say goodbye
Oh- All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
Oh- All we ever do is say goodbye


I bought a ticket on a plane
And by the time it landed, you were gone again
I love you more than songs can say
But I can't keep running after yesterday
So why you wanna break my heart again
Why am I gonna let you try


When all we ever do is say goodbye
Oh- All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
Oh- All we ever do is say goodbye


We say goodbye
We say goodbye
We say goodbye


All we ever do is say goodbye
Oh- All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
Oh- All we ever do is say goodbye


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with this song, i want to say good bye to my past.
tomorrow is the first week of advent..
moving into new chapter of life
by burning all those memories
so it could fade away..

friends, lovers, or nothing

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Now that we are over
As the loving kind
We'll be dreaming ways
To keep the good alive

Only when we want is not
A compromise
I'll be pouring tears
Into your drying eyes

Friends, lovers, or nothing
There can only be one
Friends, lovers, or nothing
We'll never be the inbetween
So give it up

You whisper "Come on over"
Cause your two drinks in
But in the morning I will say
Good-bye again

Think we'll never fall into
The jealous game
The streets will flood
With blood of those who felt the same

Friends, lovers, or nothing
You see
There can only be one
Friends, lovers, or nothing
We'll never an inbetween
So give it up

Friends, lovers, or nothing
We can really only ever be one
Friends, lovers, or nothing
Don't you know
We'll never be the inbetween
So give it up

No we'll never the inbetween
So give it up 

-john mayer

hectic week pt.3

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langsung lanjut ke kamis aja kayanya. lbh seru hehe..
soo kamis ada mppi dan lab.mikrobiologi. mppi seriously adalah mata kuliah yg bikin heboh hari rabu malam. sumpah beneran heboh. kenapa? karena gue mendapat kabar bahwa kemaren gue harus presentasi dan menggunakan baju yg teramat sangat formal which was heels, skirts and formal clothes. and as you all knew, gue ga pernah bawa barang2 macam begituan ke kosan. jd begitu dapet kabar harus pake pakaian macam begitu, paniklah gue.
sms temen2 minta tolong bawain, ga ada yg bales. samperin kosan louisa sm syuling, ga punya heels yg cocok krn kaki gue kegedean. akhirnya minta tolong ditta, cuma kemeja aja yg berhasil diselundupin sm dia. sumpah deh ih, kesel beneran gue sm itu dosen. pengen bakar hidup2 rasanya.

eh eh eh hari kamisnya, Tuhan mendengar permohonan gue semalam. hujan deras! sumpah gue seneng banget. pikir gue, "yes, jalanan banjir, ga bisa ke kampus, ga usa presentasi". lanjut tidur lg lah gue, tp karena uda keburu bangun akhirnya lanjut nonton the Vampire Diaries (sumpah cowonya ga ganteng2 banget. 6 out of 10 stars). tp kenapa tiba2 gue merasa makin sepi nan cerah dari jendela gue? gue buka pintu ngintip bentar, eh beneran aja deh it has STOPPED RAINING! uda jam 7 pula, kelas jam 8, lari2 deh gue di kosan ke kamar mandi. mandi bener2 mandi dan ga sempet beresin kamar lsg ganti baju blahblahblah berangkat ke kampus. sumpah deh ih gue uda kaya gembel bgt. ke kampus pake sendal jepit sm kaos panitia. untung ada sepatu di loker, jd masih terselamatkan. nah waktu mppi nih kelompok gue beneran dapet aja giliran maju. haduh mana gue ga ngerti apa2, grogi gila, semua teknik yg diajarin sm kak mesa hilang sudah. focus point liat jidat orang2 ga ngefek. tangan gemetar, heavily shocking layaknya babi tremor. suara jd soft nan syahdu tp ketara bgt groginya. intinya: GAGAL TOTAL.

yauda deh lanjut nih ya ke lab.mikrobiologi. uda hampir semangat 45 gue masuk lab, bawa kamera siapa tau hasilnya keren mentereng (gue berharap bgt ada E.coli biar ada metallic green sheen di EMB) ternyata ga ada aja. ih kesel banget deh. padahal gue pengen banget dapet bakterinya E.coli.
for those yg belom tau kehebatan dan kerennya E.coli, you should try to inoculate E.coli to EMB agar. sumpah hasilnya ntar keren banget karena dia bisa fermentasi laktosa dgn amat sangat hebat jadi hasilnya ga cuma biru butek jelek kaya Klebsiella atau Serratia marcescens gt deh.
nih salah satu bukti kekerenan E.coli di EMB agar:
E.coli yg metallic green sheen. dan it'll look cooler if you could see it on your own eyes. sumpah keren bgt!

oke deh lanjut aja. akhirnya hari ini kita pengamatan krn rabu kemaren uda di uji di biokim sm selektif-diferensial. ternyata hasilnya beneran aneh2 bin ajaib. ada bakteri yg harusnya positif di urea tp ga positif dsb. hingga ujung2nya adalah kita mengambil kesimpulan bahwa salah satu bakteri yg ada adalah Pseudomonas aeruginosa karena di media NA dia warnanya hijau (ada pigmen pyocyanin-pyoverdin makanya bisa berwarna hijau) dan ada 2 suspects: Klebsiella and Serratia. sumpah gue kesel beneran sama ini dua bakteri (Klebsiella dan Serratia) karena mereka tuh mirip, bener2 mirip. cuma bedanya Klebsiella ga punya pigmen meanwhile Serratia punya pigmen.
itu Pseudomonas aeruginosa di media NA, keliatan banget kan hijaunya?
nah kalo yg ini sih P.aeruginosa di pewarnaan gram.
keliatan kan kalo dia gram negatif karena warnanya pink-merah gitu.

yauda nih habis lab langsung lanjut ke foodcourt semanggi (yg follow twitter gue pasti tau banget gue ngapain aja kemaren haha). awalnya ngebahas pembagian tugas buat laporan uji suspensi bakteri X tp lama2 mulai berdatangan ftb 2008 yg lain. akhirnya ujung2nya malah jadi ngobrol ngalor ngidul kesana kemari. sumpah deh ih, gue mulai seneng dan betah disini. tp hanya karena anak2nya aja, seru buat diejek2 hahaha. kalo masalah pelajarannya sih tetep bikin sakit kepala dan mata aja. 
kalo ditanyain "do you still want to move out from biotechnology?" jawaban gue uda pasti "sure! definitely!". tp kalo dilanjutin lg pertanyaannya jadi "are you sure? you're gonna have to adapt once more and you'll leave all these friends behind." gue bakal bingung mau gimana. yah gimana yak? antara masa depan dan teman mana yg lebih penting? for me, they're both important. jadi dilemma gini. haduh haduh haduh...

nah terus malemnya kan gue ke hotel nikko depannya plaza indonesia (kalo masih belom tau, kasian banget deh lo! haha). gue nemenin bokap gue dinner with his colleagues from Japan. sumpah deh ih gue merasa jadi paling jago bahasa inggrisnya gara2 mereka super duper stupid with english. dan tiap kali mereka mau nanya, gue harus pasang kuping bener2 krn mereka ngomongnya campur antara bahasa dan english. kalo bisa di-record pengen gue record deh hahaha. tp begitu mereka ngobrol sendiri pake bahasa jepang, eng ing eng jd paling bego gitu deh gue. alien. terus gue kan pesen sukiyaki gitu, eh mereka nanya2 aja "do you like sukiyaki?" blahblahblah yg berujung ke "so you're going to biotechnology? you must be smart!" hati kecil gue lsg mengatakan "oh no! here we go again..." dan bener aja. mereka lsg invite gue ke tokyo university buat jadi guest researcher. kalo boleh ketawa ngakak, gue pengen banget ngakak sengakaknya. me? a guest researcher? HAHAHA. tp demi menjaga kesopanan gue cm bilang "well thanks, i'll let you know if i'm going to japan for my research." dan gue yakin banget bokap lsg seneng nan bangga denger anaknya bs ngomong english selancar itu hahahahaha.

anjiir gue baru inget masih ada tugas2 bertumpukan. ada imunologi ngebahas swine flu, microbiology bikin laporan uji suspensi bakteri, mppi ttg pkm-gt yg belum gue kerjain sama sekali, kidas jg belom. sumpah deh ih gue jago banget! hahaha

hectic week pt.2

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okay sekarang berlanjut lg ceritanya ke part two.. beneran hectic week sih, so there'll be many parts haha.
kalo hari senin gue heboh dgn kembalinya ke kosan, responsi biostat, blah blah blah. hari selasa gue dihebohkan dgn GUE BANGUN JAM 5.30 PAGI! yaampun, ada apa gerangan? ga tau jg kenapa tapi gue tiba2 kebangun sebelum alarm gue bernyanyi riang gembira. dan lebih ajaibnya lg, jam 7 gue uda jalan aja ke kampus, sendirian, demi kelas mikrobiologi. aneh memang, tp gue sendiri jg bingung knp bisa begitu.


waktu kelas mikro, sebelom break gue masih rajin mencatat dan mendengarkan tiap perkataan bu bibiana w.lay. tp knp setelah break gue jadi males yah? tampaknya setan rajin hanya singgah 3-4 jam hari ini. dan waktu lab mikrobiologi yg biasanya gue bersemangat '45, sumpah bener2 aneh, gue amat sangat tidak bersemangat. ga tau deh kenapa. mungkin karena gue lg ga berminat kuliah. pgn cepet2 libur aja haha.


oia di lab, sempet terjadi perdebatan sengit antara gue dan niko. jd gini, kita kan disuruh bikin rancangan identifikasi suspensi bakteri X. nah gue mikirnya tuh hari ini cukup pewarnaan gram sm inokulasi di NA sisanya besok hari rabu. tp oh tapi si niko maunya selektif-diferensial hari ini jg. yauda deh berantem gitu. debat kesana kemari dan datenglah si hans sang penengah. jreeeeng akhirnya rancangan gue menang! yay! ga penting emang, tp bagi gue itu penting bgt. pgn jadi aslab mikrob gitu hahaha. akhirnya hari selasa kelompok gue melakukan pewarnaan gram dan hasilnya semua adalah gram negatif, tp ada positifnya jg. bingung? don't be! namanya jg identifikasi, kalo ga bingung ga seru hahaha.


yauda deh hbs lab, gue lsg cabut bentar ke semanggi. bertemu dgn aldo, yg dengan baik hatinya membelikan makan siang buat gue (sumpah ini orang baik bgt! tau aja penderitaan anak kosan yg makin melarat ini haha) trs gue bilang ke dia kalo masih harus ngerjain tugas sampe sore. akhirnya dia cabut, gue balik lg ke kampus. di Y2, gue dan kelompok biostat kemudian bikin presentation slides yg sumpah gue ga ngerti apa2. bingung beneran sm jurnalnya. judul jurnalnya aja panjang banget: DECREASED EARLY ATHEROSCLEROTIC LESIONS IN HYPERTRYGLICERIDEMIC MICE EXPRESSING CHOLESTERYL ESTER TRANSFER PROTEIN TRANSGENE. heboh banget kan judulnya? yauda deh akhirnya jadi jg slides-nya. trs uda jam 4an gitu lsg balik deh gue ke kosan. takut jd korban hujan lg eh ternyata emg lagi hujan. cuma gerimis kecil sih tp anginnya heboh cuy! berbekal modal nekat, gue hajar aja itu hujan meskipun konsekuensinya gue jd lemes2 gt ngerjain laporannya.


oiaa masalah laporan, ini laporan individual terakhir gue. sisanya kelompok. jujur gue lbh seneng laporan individual deh, ga tau kenapa. hbs kalo laporan kelompok kan bagi2 tugas gitu, rasanya ga afdol aja kalo ga tau semuanya. tp yauda sih, anak pemalas macam gue ini bikin laporan individual aja selasa malem, masih minta tetep dibikin individu. gebleg ah.


tapi tapi tapi tapi gue akhirnya bisa dengerin battle studies loh! seneng banget deh hehe. trs trs trs yauda sih itu aja. ga penting banget yak? hahaha. sabodo nanan (prasetya 2008)

hectic week pt.1

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oke uda lama ga ngeblog. ga ngehorn mousehunt. dan lebih tepatnya ga online! awalnya sih mau pake alasan: internet connection nya error! tp ga bener jg gara2 gue lg keasikan sm hidup gue dan lingkungan sekitar gue, jd tiap kali mau online bawaannya uda cape duluan. hahaha


yaa jadi gitu deh, minggu ini berawal dgn gue berangkat ke kosan hari senin pagi2 buta. kenapa senin? karena minggu malemnya gue lebih milih buat nonton disney channel: wizards of the waverly place the movie. i know it's such a kid movie, tp gue demen bgt sm  disney channel - animax - nickelodeon. kalo kosan gue ada disney channel and animax, dijamin ga bakal balik2 ke rumah tiap minggu (sorry mom, sorry dad). yauda sih akhirnya gue merelakan diri gue bangun pagi2 buta (jam 5 doang sih haha) biar bisa ikut kelas responsi biostat jam 11.

bulan november selalu jd bulan males gue. ga tau kenapa, tp gue selalu mengalami tingkat kemalasan yang super duper extremely high di bulan november. hedonism level yg juga super duper extremely high. serta tingkat kelaperan yg definitely absolutely extremely rakus! biasanya sih kalo ditanyain "kok lo makan terus, ntar gendut loh" gue cm akan menjawab "hbs hujan terus, dingin, jd bawaannya mau makan biar ada kalor hehe". tp itu dulu sebelom gue pindah ke kosan. sekarang kalo ditanyain hal yg sama, jawaban gue adalah "hbs jalanan banjir, ga bs kemana2, hujan terus, bingung mau ngapain. ya uda makan aja sambil nonton hahaha". yup dan hasilnya bisa dilihat sekarang: i am such a FAT PIG! knp babi? padahal babi itu adalah julukan untuk obed. ga tau aja, hbs babi itu dagingnya enak. dan haram for some people. krn ke-haram-annya itu, babi jd makin berasa enak HAHAHA.

okee balik lg yaa ke main focus. gue akhirnya ikut kelas biostat jam 11. cuma berdasarkan jadwal, harusnya tuh jam 1. tp karena ada FORUM FTB akhirnya dimajuin jadi jam 11. ga penting, emang. malesin, banget! akhirnya tetep masuk aja deh gue meskipun uda malesnya bener2 males. demi nilai juga sih cuy. ogah ngulang lg dan bertemu dosen yg sama for the third time (the first time was on short hectic semester dan gue decided to cancel the class. males aja liburan masi kuliah haha). ikut ikut ikut dan hasil setelah gue ikut responsi hari senin kemaren: GA ADA BEDANYA. tetep ga ngerti apa itu biostat dll. (ga selebay itu sih, gue ngerti cuma bingung aja sm uji lanjut dll yg menurut gue amat sangat belom penting untuk saat ini haha). di pikiran gue cuma bagaimana caranya gue bisa mengidentifikasi suspensi bakteri "X" hari selasa besok.

yauda deh, selesai kan nih kelasnya. bawaannya pengen makan2 dong, uda lunch time jg. lambung jg main orkestranya kenceng pula. berencana ga mau ikut forum krn pengalaman taun lalu, sumpah, forumnya ngebosenin banget. tp ga enak sm temen2 seangkatan gue, krn mereka yg bikin acaranya, ikut jg deh gue. ga tau harus nanggepinnya bagaimana, tp di forumnya sendiri gue jg males. akhirnya gue cm denger denger denger denger denger. tiba2 deng deng deng pertanyaan ttg PKL diajukan dan gue (yg masih belom jelas keberlangsungan hidupnya di dunia biotechnology ini) curi2 start aja mikir mau PKL dimana. padahal masih taun depan aja cuy haha. yaa gitu deh ujung2nya sih gue jd mulai mikir2 ttg masa depan gue. is it good? or is it bad? ga penting bgt yak? yauda sih.. hahaha

terus mengingat hari senin adalah hari deadline gue, sampe kosan lsg heboh bikin rkp. masih belom ada apa2 gt. cm lembaran hvs a4 80gr yg sudah ada borderan tp belom ada tulisan apa2. padahal uda jam 8 malem. heboh nian ngerjain, untung selesai just in time. kayanya gue tipe deadliners deh. hbs kalo masih bisa jalan2 knp harus ngerjain tugas? hahaha. tp buat junior2 gue yg sudah atau yg mau masuk dunia biotek (atau perkuliahan) jgn diikutin yaa life style gue ini. bahaya bgt. lo bakal pacaran sm komputer dan kopi tiap malem menjelang uts dan uas. ga mau kan? jd rajin2 ngerjain tugas hahahahaha

Saturday 21 November 2009

free falling to you

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She's a good girl
Loves her mama
Loves Jesus and America too

She's a good girl
Crazy bout Elvis
Loves horses and her boyfriend too


It's a long day living in Reseda
There's a freeway running through the yard


I'm a bad boy cause I don't even miss her
I'm a bad boy for breaking her heart


And I'm free, free falling
Falling


And I'm free, free falling
Falling


All the vampires walking through the valley
They move west on Ventura boulevard


And all the bad boys are standing in the shadows
And the good girls are home with broken hearts


And I'm free, free falling
Falling


Now I'm free, free falling
Falling


I wanna glide down over Mulholland
I wanna write her name in the sky


I wanna free fall out into nothing
I'm gonna leave this world for a while


And I'm free, free falling
Falling


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just a song i'm listening to at the moment.
with rain on the background and the catchy voice of John Mayer..
Free Fallin' really a must listening song :)

the three stories

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weehee.. long time no post banget! mengingat keadaan internet connection yg makin bapuk di tempat kosan dan selalu tewasnya diri ini dikala hujan rintik-rintik maupun deras bikin males post new blog hehe. so sorry :)

today am gonna make three stories (top!) and here's the spoiler. the first one is for my beloved high school festival, Gonzaga Festival. then a sad sadly journey to my friend's grieve and the last is today's topic, Lab Instructor. I can't show you the photos cause I left the cable data back at my boarding room, so once again, please accept my apology :p

GONZAGA FESTIVAL
just by read the title, you'd know what kind of story am gonna tell. Yup it's about Gonzaga Festival. It was held on November 14th (last week) at Gonzaga College. There were about four artists: Efek Rumah Kaca (ERK), White Shoes and the Couples Company (WSTCC), Barry Likumahuwa's Project, and last but not least Netral!
But there's a story behind the gonzaga festival. I went to Dita's house first. Since I didn't have my car with me so I need a ride to go there. With Vento (Dita's boyfriend) we went to Anomali Coffee House (If you follow my twitter, you'd knew the journey LOL). Then finally we arrived at Gonzaga, it's already hectic! Missed the WSTCC performance but I met lots of my friends. Actually the main reason why I really wanted to be there was I MISS MY HIGH SCHOOL FRIENDS a LOT! Yeah, when you don't feel belong in a place you're looking for a place where you feel happy and belong to. It's my high school community.
Well I met plenty plenty plenty of them and I was soooooo happy. Indescribable.

Already missed you guys :(

AWIN'S FATHER and 2008's SAD JOURNEY
another story is about one of my university's friends, awin (lydwina). her father died on tuesday morning and we, 2008 students, decided to come to honor her father's for the last time. it's located in rumah duka jelambar, kinda far from atma jaya university. and we took the crazy way to get there.
we took trans-jakarta bus from benhil station to kota station. and i was surprised actually, the kota station wasn't as bad as i thought. it's on renovation to become better than before (of course lah nas). then we walked about 5-8 minutes to take M02 (mikrolet 02) to the grieving house.
not much i could say about this trip, since we're having microbiology quiz on 11.00 am. but still, please accept my condolence to your father, awin. may his soul rest in peace.

oh before i forgot, i was so proud to my 2008 friends cause we never had this togetherness. am so proud of you :)

LAB INSTRUCTOR
got a news from a friend of mine to replace her and gotta be there in an hour. okay today started with a crazy call, but i made it! yup, me being a lab instructor on teaching laboratory for biotechnology open house. at first i had to explain what is soxhlet and the components itself, then fungkey switched and i got the micro pipette. yay!
well there were about 4 batch and each batch had five groups. thought it'd be simple, i explain the micro pipette easily. frankly it wasn't as easy as i thought. to explain, it is simple. but to keep on the right timing, it's hard! then if i had to calculate on how many times i explained the same thing, 4 batch * 5 groups = 20 times!

actually there are plenty i want to share with you guys, but i have to go. maybe next time i'll share more about my life in biotechnology :)

for my dearest mister rebel but sweet, i don't like aldo (or odla in twitter). i only like you. and the distance i made is because i need my space to be alone. sometimes people need their space. don't worry cause i still hanging onto you :)

Saturday 14 November 2009

hectic bazaar

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wew uda lama banget yak ga post? sorry yaa.. habis bingung mau cerita apaan (kayanya ada banyak deh..) mungkin gue akan lebih milih buat cerita tentang pengalaman gue shopping at Charles and Keith's bazaar. sumpah aja deh gue, it was the first, me, in a hectic insanely bazaar! hahaha

jadi berkat ajakan ditta prakoso (follow her twitter as well @dittaprakoso) gue ke senayan city. though it was a heavy raining, gue bela-belain demi memuaskan my biggest passions: shoes and shopping. buat yg follow twitter gue, pasti uda mulai baca ajakan-ajakan mautnya ditta dari hari selasa hahaha. yaudin cabut dari kampus lsg naik taxi menuju senayan city (rencana awal naik trans jakarta but the rain made us take a cab..blame it on the rain! LOL). nah nah nah waktu uda di senayan city, langsung lah kita ke charles and keith shop, tapi kok sepi banget? apa karena cuma the chosen people yg tau tentang bazaar-nya? tapi harganya ga banget jg, masih above 200k. well kita akhirnya pindah ke zara, looking for a leather jacket and shirts (plus blazer for me) cuma kok ga ada yg bagus? pindahlah kita ke debenhams. di debenhams kita liat ada christmas tree gede banget, 3 types of them are white christmas tree - black gothic christmas tree - white and blue christmas tree, and all of them are superb amazing! harganya juga superb amazing! above 20 millions aja.. keren kan?
dari debenhams dengan penuh sakit hati kita pindah ke topshop and topman. i found my soul mate! a leather jacket am looking for ternyata ada di topman! cuma am a heartbreak kid when i read the price tag. 1.5 million ajah. totally not worth it! dengan penuh kesakithatian akhirnya kita berjalan-jalan ria kesana kemari melanglang buana muterin senayan city. tiba-tiba entah siapa yg mulai ada ide, kita naik ke lantai 8. eh eh eh bener aja bazaarnya di lantai 8! antriannya masih pendek sih, ga menggila kaya crocs bazaar. yaudin kita terobos aja tuh and JENG JENG JENG JENG antriannya emang masih pendek, but all those chairs already fulled! tetep modal nekat akhirnya berhasil naik ke hall floor cumaa DAR DIR DER DOR rame aja deh and lebih hectic! teteeeeeeeeep nekat akhirnya kita rebutan sepatu sama ibu-ibu. WE MADE IT TO THE END!
ditta got a pair of silver strappy heels and i got 2 pair of heels.
it was a great experience which i would definitely tell my children someday, when i decided to have one, biar mereka bisa merasakan nikmatnya rebutan sepatu hahaha.

tips if you want to survive at bazaar:

  1. bring mineral water! it's a must bring item.
  2. wear comfy shoes and loose shirts. you're gonna competition with lots of crazy girls and be comfy is a must!
  3. bring cash min. 1 million (in IDR). you'll never know what kind of payment the bazaar takes. just in case they didn't take credit, you already well prepared.
  4. make a list. you don't want to lose all your money on a bazaar, do you?
  5. be CRAZY, WILD, HAVE NO FEAR mental. this is a one-time-bazaar. surely you're gonna need to have this mental.

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